Wednesday Middles Out

Middle of the week, ain't it?

A Tuesday Lost

I hate when I lose things. I hate it even more when I lose things and I can't find them no matter how hard I try looking.

A Monday Gone

Monday has flown by, and now I'll have to welcome Tuesday soon.

Regress

Sunday's time for me to relax. And once again I'm just gonna be here.

Out Roleplaying Somewhere Else

Saturday's here, and that means it's time for me to play some good old-fashioned tabletop role-playing games! See y'all tomorrow!

Almost At It Again

The weekend's here, and I'm ready to... well, almost call it a weekend.

And Yet Not Enough

Too much planning for too little time.

tired and yeah

Woo. I'm beat. I'm gonna call it a day.

So Little Words

So many decisions, and ideas... so little time to act upon it all.

The worst part is that I won't have time tomorrow - I've got one of those shifts that will take most (if not all) of my free time. In the meantime, I'm making up for by working on my campaign. I think I've figured a few things out - and that's much better than yesterday.

Formation

I've come across one major snag when it comes to creating a tabletop role-playing campaign: the important decision of selecting your engine. There's a good variety out there, but I've only experienceda few of them so far in my life. It also doesn't help that I've only experienced each engine on the player character side - I'm sure the GM side's a whole 'nother issue. What's more, each system has a few things I like and some other things that I don't.

Now, a third option has come up: the idea that I could just make up my own system. I had tinkered with that idea for a bit (I even came up with a few character classes and talent trees), but it's so much work that I wasn't even up for continuing after I had the basics set up. It still is a possibility for me to use my own modified engine, but that would be a long road to travel.

When it comes down to it, though, I think that creating the story and characters take precedence over selecting the engine I want to use to run this game. I'm sure I can deal with that when it's time. Until then, I'll just keep focusing on keeping the story tight and gripping, and the characters the players will eventually face as memorable as possible

Almost Like Usual

It's quite interesting to note that I've focused most of this first day off on relaxing and less on projects, writing, or anything of the sort. It's not that I'm lazy this time. It's more along the lines of me just getting distracted by other things (like job grinding on Bravely Default... so, yeah.

Since I've got one more day to do stuff (and more importantly: since I don't have any pressing matter to bug me), I should have sufficient time to post well tomorrow. For now, we'll have to deal with this...

You Know What They Say About Old Habits...

It might be Saturday, but today feels like a Friday. That's because when it comes to my work week, I'm done, and that means I can finally begin to relax.

Thing is, I don't exactly know what it is I want to do. I've got plenty of ideas going through my head, and all of them sound rather enticing. Do I play the crap out of Bravely Default and FTL: Faster Than Light? Do I work on my tabletop role-playing game campaign ideas and map out more of the story? Do I just veg out and do absolutely nothing (and hope it's everything I thought it could be)? Do I take it easy and recuperate from both minor sickness and aches?

Or do I just try to do a mixture of all of the above (with a little bit of other things for good measure) and call it a weekend well spent?

Hrm. I'm torn. The latter seems quite enticing... okay, screw it. I might just end up doing that - it's what I've always been doing before (plus or minus some video games), and it's what I do best! It also doesn't seem like I'll be changing those ways any time soon. Humans are creatures of habit, after all - why else would I alter the status quo?

Okay, plan's set. I'm gonna go do things that keep me entertained!

Binding

Time certainly seems to be going slower as summer slowly inches closer. Yeah, I know - the days are getting longer; the nights shorter; blah, blah, blah. It's fun and all, but gods... if you've nothing to do all day, then the sun's just gonna taunt you all day and night. That's no fun, now, is it?

For the time being, though... it's not too bad. So long as people are free and things are open and I have gas to get to places, I think I'll be okay. In the meantime, it's time for me to rest up and get ready for longer days. Those are gonna be fun.

So, what to expect from me as the daytime hours? More talk of projects? Some posts involving said (completed) projects? Life in general? Other fun things? I'm not sure, but I'm trying to make sure I have the energy and the time to write. Right now, however... it's a bit tricky. Between things I'm trying to fight and other things I'm trying to juggle, I'm in a bit of a bind. It's been like that for a long while for me... but I'm slowly getting myself back to gear.

Carded Out

Having a night out with friends playing "Cards Against Humanity." I'll see y'all tomorrow.

Names For Thought

Once again I find myself interested in making up names for people and other countries. It's fun and quite time-consuming, so it's pretty much absorbed most of my current free time for today. I wonder just how cool-sounding they'd be to others' ears, because my views would obviously be a bit... skewed.

Anyway, all this name-developing has inspired me to work on that tabletop role-playing game campaign I was supposed to have finished by last year. I'm sure my friends who were waiting for that might actually enjoy this particular set of news, but alas - I'm far from finished. That's okay, though - good things do take time.

With all these names, an influx of ideas just keeps showing up. It's getting me excited just thinking about it. *keeps typing*

Get Away, Dammit

I have this weird thing about personal space and boundaries. Okay, maybe it's not really weird and more along the lines of "Goddammit, people; get away from me while I'm working on things by myself!" syndrome. I seem to have it in spades - particularly when I'm actually focused on working on a project.

Take the other day, for instance. I'm sitting in the library working on some projects and typing up some things - obviously minding my own business. Out of nowhere, two women show up and decide to take the table next to mine. Afterwards, they begin talking and yakking and doing things that just upset the once-calm demeanor that was in my mind.

Lost Track Again

It's hard to realize certain things when other things keep happening and get in the way. I find it fun and confusing, although it can get hard to keep track of everything that goes on.

In short, I've had a lot of things happen in the last few days. I nearly had to deal with my character dying in a tabletop roleplaying game. I hastily filed my taxes. I've hung out with people - both in work and out of it. I've gotten paid and promptly had it all sucked away by bills.

Essentially, I've been surviving. I'm not yet living, though.

It's crazy how things are going. It's horrible knowing that my two days off are up tonight and that I have to go back in. It's not that I hate my job - I actually enjoy it. It's more along the lines of "I don't want to work" - which is what no one really wants to do. I'm probably just ranting, but that's what today seems to be dedicated to. I enjoyed my days off, and now I'm refreshed and recharged, ready to tackle the rest of the week.

Now if you'll excuse me, I think I smell gas. Not a good sign.

Two Days Once Again

I don't know why I say things when I know it's going to be nullified the next day. I have this nasty habit of doing that often - especially lately. It could be because it's my day off and I'm trying to regain my mental strength. That's probably the case.

Well, while the bad news may be that today's entry is a short one, the good news is that I also have tomorrow off. Two days off work in a row can do wonders for people. I'll be sure to relax and get rejuvenated.

Raincheck

Playing a role-playing game right now; will post tomorrow.

Rambled Out But Fun

Typing that Let's Play was really fun, but it did take a lot out of me. It's Friday. I'm going to go ahead and relax by playing some video games. Once I get my bearings back and get some energy in me, I'm pretty sure things are going to be better.

I'm just trying to make sure I'm primed and ready to do fun things once again. It's just... wow, I think I'm rambling at this point. Lots of work means lots of time needed to rest up and get myself back to speed. So, tomorrow.

FTL 1-1: Meet the Voyager Voyeur!

Alrighty, ladies and gents. It's time to traverse the galaxy and run away from the evil clutches of the guys who want us dead because we're on the losing side! It's time to look at my first-ever Let's Play! (Or at least the first part of it.)

Take it away, FTL: Faster Than Light!

On The Way

To be honest, composing this entry is much, much more writing-centric than I thought it'd be.

Whoo, boy, that's a lot of things I'm multitasking between...

But don't fear! I'm not putting it off or anything - I'm working on it! We'll see if I can get the whole shebang finished by tomorrow.

Let's Preview a Let's Play

So, what's this weird and fun idea I had planned for y'all today? You'll have to read on and find out, because I don't feel like spoiling it for you! (Although I'm fairly positive that both the title and tags already did that for me, so why did I bother to taunt you? *shrugs*)

Let's See If This Actually Is Right For Once

It looks as though what I had planned for y'all is going to have to wait 'til tomorrow. In addition to work and other plans I have for the day, I'm not going to have access to the Internet. Seems a little detrimental, but eh, I can live for a bit.

This doesn't mean that I'll be slacking off on making tomorrow's entry fun and interesting.

Impending Fun

I've got an interesting idea for a new entry! It's going to show up either tomorrow or Tuesday as I figure out what to do with it! In the meantime, I'm gonna keep playing Bravely Default and level-grinding like every good RPG player should. We'll see how tomorrow goes. If not then, then the day after.

Regardless, it's gonna be fun.

Overdone For Once

*tired grunt*

To be honest, I didn't want to write anything on here today. I worked for a good long while (enough for me to finally notice that my feet were aching much more than usual), and my paycheck's going to thank me for it.

But for now? Ugh. I'm lacking the stamina to write. To make matters worse, I said I'd type up something decent today, and for the first time in forever, I'm legitimately too fatigued to write anything of any quality. I'm essentially crying wolf, and no one's going to believe me.

Ah, well. Not like anyone's reading my personal blog nowadays (or any personal blog, for that matter). I'll just lie here, tired from work and smelling like sandwiches. In the morning, I'll have to get up and repeat the process - but at least I' don't have to work as long.

So, yeah, that's it for today.

Distracted By the Gaming

Too busy having fun playing Bravely Default to post anything substantial! I promise I'll post something tomorrow!

Re-Game On

In an effort to break the cycle of monotonous entries and the overall air of lameness present in my blog, I've decided that I'm going to play some video games.

Restarting...

When I said I was done, I meant it. But did I confer as to what I was done with? Of course not; I'm too much of a cryptic jerk to openly state the obvious answer.

In truth, I did call it. I was done... with the craptastic lethargy that I've allowed myself to get swamped by. It did me no good (hell, it's probably driven every reader off), and I've gotten nowhere with my creativity.

I told myself, "That needs to change, Josh." I agreed... and here we are...

An End for a Fool...

After months of deliberation, I think it's time to call it in.

There has been no hope for some restoration of balance to appear, and yet here I am, clinging to some delusional fantasy that hope will pay off. Petty wishes no longer possess the power they once had, and a cold reality is all that awaits those waiting for a warm reprieve. "Wasted time," it can be called - and those who label it as such can be assured of their accurate statement.

I honestly don't know why I bother staying here when all I've done is... well, nothing, really. Post after post of crapshit "entries" (if we could even call them that) with nothing of any consequence. Bogged by apathy and lethargy alike, it's done nothing to contribute to a better me. It's done nothing to bring solace and conclusion to the ever-continuing story of my life, and it most certainly hasn't brought me out of this... well, "slump" is the best word I can use to describe it.

So, what do the above cryptic metaphors mean in layman's terms? It means I'm done. I'm throwing in the towel; I'm waving the white flag; I'm pronouncing the time of death and ceasing resuscitation. Abort mission; call it a failure and label me as such.

Because I'm done.